The past year I have had a life changing event happen, I lost my mom. I was not prepared at all, I mean how could you? Whether you got to say goodbye or not you can never fully prepare for such a loss. I am no expert on grief. Honestly I have pushed it away. I have a box. In that box it is filled with pictures of me and my mom, letters I wrote to her and she wrote to me and old tickets to football games we went too. I only open this box when I want to grief, other days it sits in the back of my closet. I do not recommend this. I want to learn how to grief, and to stop putting all of my sadness in a box tucked away in my closet, and I want you to as well if you our on a journey through some type of grief. Maybe start by taking that box out and leaving it out longer than a hour, listening to a song, watching a movie, writing how you feel, or just simply allowing yourself to cry maybe even scream. I like to pray. Pray to God and ask him to provide me with comfort. Pray that my mom may visit me in a dream or through nature. Sometimes I even talk to my mom, I cannot hear her but I know she can hear me.
I pray that if you are on a journey through any type of grief you let it out and allow yourself time to heal. It will not be easy. Trust me. It will be long and that is okay, there is no time limit for when you are done grieving, honestly sometimes you never stop, it just doesn’t hurt as much. That pain you feel in your chest loosens, your able to swallow the bump in your throat, and your heart does not feel broken anymore. You may still miss them but you have a smile on your face when their song comes on the radio.
I was watching the movie “My girl” today for the third time in the past two days. This movie has such a good meaning to it. The part that I love the most is the poem at the very end;
“Weeping willow with your tears running down
why do you always weep and frown?
Is it because he left you one day?
Is it because he could not stay?
He found shelter in your shade,
You thought his laughter would never fade
On your branches, he would swing
Do you long for the happiness that day would bring?
Weeping willow, stop your tears,
For there is something to calm your fears.
If you think death has ripped you forever apart
I know he’ll always be in your heart.”
This gets me every time even typing it out. The poem is absolutely beautiful don’t you agree? Especially the last stanza “If you think death has ripped you forever apart I know he’ll always be in your heart”. This could not be more true. Death cannot separate us from our loved ones. They will forever be in our hearts until the day we meet again.
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