Healer; Healing

Today as I was headed to the grocery store two beautiful things happened. I saw pure love and kindness. While headed to the grocery store I saw two police officers helping an old man with his groceries, this made my eyes open, it reminded me that there are good people, that the world is not as bad as social media portrays it to be. Then as I headed home from the store I was getting on to M37 and a car had broke down in the middle of the street, at first I did not realize what was going on I just thought it was traffic then I saw three large guys running my direction at first I was scared, then I realized they were coming to help push the broken down car. That feeling of being scared automatically change to a smile, my heart was warm. God answered the prayer I had been praying for months, the one where I asked for hope. I was so close to pushing grocery shopping off for another days task but something told me to go today. I realized I have been living my life on cruise control, I was not including God into my everyday life, this is when I started losing hope. Once I turned off cruise control and breathed God showed me to incidents social media or the news would not put on a headline. It was pure love and kindness. It was God shining his light on the world I was losing hope in. God answered my prayer his answer was “yes.” Yes the world still has goodness, love and kindness. Yes things will get better, but yes it will take time. As I was writing this the dogs began to brake I got up and looked out my window to see a man saving a baby bird in the street. This world is not as bad as we may think. If you are still reading this I challenge you to be the person that shines Gods light.

No words can describe my feeling from tonight. The way I felt in today’s sun, rain and the breeze that came after. The weather of today described my exact feelings. I’m in awe of how connected we really our to this planet, heaven and the Lords love. I could feel it more than ever tonight, I felt it in the my bones and soul. It is peace. It is love. It is strength. I am receiving all of this from the Lord and my mom who is right beside him. I broke down my walls and I am learning to embrace it all.

Today my day started with a beautiful sunny car ride singing to the top of my lungs with a true friend, then I went to work expressing my old soul with old and wise souls at the nursing home, when I got home I enjoyed the sun and decided I was going to plant flowers and visit my mom. This is when my heart began to hurt, and it started to rain but just for a minute or two. As I was putting the flowers in the pot it began to thunder storm but as soon as I reached the cemetery the rain came to a pause. I place the flowers next to my moms stone and shared sometime with her feeling her presence as I began to cry it began to rain again, then came the breeze the breeze that felt more like a hug telling me I’m going to be okay and I am not alone.

What is more beautiful than that, than feeling pure love and comfort from the Lord and the person you miss the most sitting right there next to him. As begin to pray and look back at today I open my bible to Luke 1:28. “The angle came to her and said, “Greetings! The Lord is with you; you are very special to him.” After reading this verse my soul feels so full. Full of Gods love.

Each one of us is special to the Lord, and he is ALWAYS with us, look for him.

Philippians 3:8-10 “Indeed, I count everything as loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord. For his sake I have suffered the loss of all things and count them as rubbish, in order that I may gain Christ and be found in him, not having a righteousness of my own that comes from the law, but that which comes through faith in Christ, the righteousness from God that depends on my faith that I may know him and the power of his resurrection, and may share his suffering, becoming like him in his death”

I found this verse today, and it did more than speak to me, it remind me that all the things that were my life before Christ meant nothing to me. That I was not living with a purpose. It was a lifeless life that had no hope, trust, and love from Jesus. I remember when I did learn about Jesus. I remember how my heart felt so full and not hurting, I remember my eyes were open wide looking at this new life I had just been given.

If you are in the same place I was a year ago not believing in Jesus I pray you open your heart out to him, maybe try watching an online church service or trying to pray, learn the lyrics to a worship song. Leave the life filled with pain and suffering and begin a life with Jesus filled with purpose. All you have to do is say to him “Jesus I’m ready, I’m ready to begin a new life with you.” Jesus is waiting for you. He already knows your name, he knows your story not just the parts that you let the world see but the full story with both the good and bad. He wants to forgive you. He wants your hardest times to have the greatest purpose. He loves you! If you don’t already have a personal relationship with Jesus I pray you start it today.

Happy Easter everyone! I know this one was different then what you are used to but I hope you made the best out of your circumstances. So many things are being cancelled right now, it feels like our lives have been cancelled. There are so many unknowns that keep your mind running day and night. Not today, today we are reminded of the power of Jesus. Jesus conquered the grave! He conquers all of our fears. All we need to do is put our trust in his name.

Life is full of unwanted events, circumstances we cannot control and hard times we must get through. But through the hard times God is with us and he has a plan for us and a process to get to the bigger picture.

We live in a broken world, the “life between two gardens” but God will help us get through. God created us with dust and when we are facing problems that turn into dust with no pieces big enough to be glued back together he will help recreate us once more.

It’s totally okay to be angry. It’s the way we treat our anger, that’s important. We as humans get angry so easily, sometimes over nothing and other times there really is something to be mad about. All of us handle this feeling differently. For me I normally stay quiet and pretend I’m not mad. Others may lash out, play the silent treatment or talk behind the person’s back. How do you react to anger?